It's nice to see you again.
It's nice to see you in a different light.
June hasn't been very kind to me the last several years
[or maybe, I haven't been kind to me the last few years]
Last year, I wasn't kind to me by being with Phil.
The year prior, it was Kevin.
The year prior, I was struggling with being really sick and struggling with my self-image.
And the year before that....
a man I was courting and loved with all my heart, drove out of a parking lot on a hot, Florida afternoon...never to be seen again.
[it.still.throbbbs.]
But June?
It's halfway through the year, and I'd like to look at this year's resolutions I made:
1. With God's help, I will stay on the straight and the narrow this year, getting closer to my God.
2. With God's help, I will remain chaste this year and will especially not become involved with men that do not know Jesus.
3. With God's help, I will find the job that I am supposed to be at this year.
4. With God's help, I will continue to eat healthy and will exercise more often.
5. With God's help, I will continue this hard lesson of forgiveness and mercy.
6. With God's help, I will try to not seek my own vengeance or willfulness.
7. With God's help, I will minister to those in need.
And June?
I did find a job.
And I am growing in the Lord still.
And I am learning to forgive and not be vengeful.
And I am ministering to the needy of Tampa Bay.
I could still exercise more...but you know what, June?
I've been chaste.
I had a crush, but thankfully, it's fading...and he and I never even kissed or anything.
And June?
I intend on remaining chaste for the next six months.
I will live in purity of body and mind, with God as my Beloved and my Helper.
I'm determined to make chastity cool again.
I'm saying "Yes" to God. "Yes" to my future husband.
Yes to my soul.
No more of this boring "No, you can't do that" abstinence stuff.
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But June?
Please be kind to me this year.
