Rend[h]er

Jesus said to take up our cross daily.

[ I understand that intellectually ]

but the whole "needing to surrender" thing--
it.grips.me.

Letting go.
Relinquishing.

Oh God.

I'm frail
I fail.
I rail.

I am f[r]ail.

I cried and cried on my way to the beach tonight.
Letting this song wash over me.

I have to give you everything
And then the yoke is easy.

I have to give you everything.
And then the burden is light.

And oh--the peace!
Of pure abandon!

And oh--the joy!
Of sweet surrender!

Cuz if I try to save my life, I'll lose it,
But if I lose my life for your sake, I'll find it in end.

I'll find it in the end....

Life is found in the laying down. (Happy Holiness)
Joy is found in the tearing of the heart (Joyful Righteousness)

Life is found in the letting go. (Happy Holiness)
Joy is found in the tearing of the heart. (Joyful Righteousness)

Happy Holiness.
Joyful Righteousness in the laying down.
In the letting go.

Your peace is found.

I have to get this.

Life depends on the letting go.

So today, I have to let go of:

• my bitter disappointment in not getting the djembe

• my sadness over the fact that the only time my brother picks up the phone for me, is when he answers it in his sleep.

• my fear and confusion over having a crush for the first time in 6 months.

Sir, Rend Her Heart.

Surrender heart.